I explore the subtle alternate realities that emerge from the "real" reality out there. The video form allows me to further explore, and bring into the open, human boundary seeking and discomforts that occur when people interact.
This blog is a my own space to play in. A sandbox to do what I like without having to commit to a strict underlying principle.
Someone in front of a large window. At the Musemum of Modern Art in New York. No words (except that this is the image on my "business card"
I sometimes find myself roaming the streets, with my camera and a lot of spare time, seeking subjects that inretest me - and find nothing. Everything is bland, gray, mundane. All the interesting people are gone. This is when I ask myself what am I really looking for in street photography.
And then there are times I cannot stop pressing the shutter, to the point of exhaustion. The pictures jump at me from every direction. Over there! A man sitting on a bench, thinking about something next to a mysterious reflection.. There - a women with red hair on the background of a rusty door, her eyes set on one spot on the horizon.. There! a woman in black walking briskly with her hands flying in all directions and her body leaning forward - looking at me exactly as I press the trigger.. Over there! a women lifting her dress and caressing her thigh unconcious of my gaze.. until it is too late.. Everything is interesting, the heart soars, the spirit is singing and the happiness is unbounded. These are the moments I know exactly why I photograph on the street.
How can this be? What makes the difference? Can it be that in the first case I just happen to be in boring places?.. Am I lucky, in the other case, to be with all the interesting people?
Today, after experiencing both cases, I am confident the answer is mostly inside me.
People in the street are interesting to me when I give myself the freedom to relate, really relate, to what is happening around me. This is not a forced connection.. It is something transcendent. A connection in which I feel light as a feather, almost gliding above the ground.. Not pushing the photograph. I am between worlds, I see but am not seen among all the special people aroung me, allowing myself to be exposed only that much, sufficiently for them to notice me, not enough for them to be changed. They are still inside themselves - these are the people I want to photograph at the time I want to photograph them.
The people are the same people, the camera is the same camera, surely the photographs, too, are the same?.. However, it is not so. On days in which I feel heavy, forced, forcing, the photographs are not good. I don't like them. On the light days, I like almost all of them.
My photographs are different when I am flying. I am sure the people photographed also feel differently when I are soaring, touching them ever so lightly. My photographs are then different, too.
What am I, a Photographer, an Artist, or both? (I will ignore, with your permission, the possibility of "neither"). In an attempt to simplify the analysis, I will define four points on a continuum.
These span from a "pure" photographer to a "pure" artist. From Photographer-Photographer (PP) to Artist-Artist (AA) through Photographer-Artist (PA) and Artist-Photographer (AP).
The epitome of a PP would be someone working for the National Geographic. Whether professional or amateur, the PP is most interested in making the perfect photograph. This would be distinguished by excellent technique, good colour, fantastic lighting, mastery of all the ways to make a really "wow" photograph. I believe 95% of all photographers fall into this category or wish to. Most online photography forums cater to this population (and financially speaking, this makes perfect sense).
The AA, at the the other extreme, is first and foremost someone wanting to express himself through Art. He may use the camera as a way to make studies or use it as part of the work. He does not define himself as a photographer at all.
With the PA and AP, things become more subtle.
The PA is in love with photography. In this respect, he may not be any different from the PP. I believe, however, that the PA is also interested in the philosophy of photography. In addition to the love of making photographs, he is constantly in awe about the nature of the photograph. He has read Barthes' "Camera Lucida" and is amazed with the uncanny meaning photographs give to life and death. He has also read Benjamin's views on photography. He constantly questions himself about the connection between photography and reality and is fascinated with all the questions that photography raises. The PA is also an Artist and has swallowed books on Art in an attempt to understand what it all means. He wants his Art to express himself using photography and nothing else (except text, maybe, which is a different topic). He believes photographs need to show more than what is there.
The AP on the other hand, is first and foremost an Artist, and only then a Photographer. He has probably studied in Art school before using a camera. He is less concerned with maintaining an indexical relationship between picture and reality. The photograph is primarily a tool for self expression, and he is more likely to experiment with other media in conjunction or instead of the camera. He could use photography without taking photographs via appropriation, he can use photography as a canvas on which to paint. He will define himself as an Artist.
So where am I on this continuum? It should be no surprise to the reader that I see myself today as a Photographer-Artist. I may find myself one day moving on to "the right", towards the AP, but one way or the other, I do not see myself abandoning the camera.
As a way of demonstrating this point, above is a photograph of mine that would probably fall into the definition of a "good photograph" that could have been taken by a PP. However, when a photograph is so "pretty", one can miss the main point. In fact, one can ask "is there a point beyond the obvious?" And then there is this photograph.. Also a spontaneous street photograph. Far less "aesthetic".. For me, it is a photograph I like much more, as it connects to those parts of the human condition I am most interested to explore.
I received an e-mail from a young woman one day. She was an aspiring nude model, interested in Art, had participated in a few nude sessions already, and thought it could be an interesting experience to work with me. About 30 minutes into the session, after I had photographed the transformation from a fully dressed young women to a nude model, she asked me what I wanted her to "do", how I wanted her to pose for me. She felt she was not "doing" anything to justify her role as model. I told her I am very satisfied with how it is going, and what she is "doing" already is exactly what I am looking for. She suddenly took on a very worried expression, and said: "You know, I have never ever been photographed without posing, and that worries me a lot. I really don't care if people know what I am - I am used to showing off my body, and I know it looks good. But I am scared people may get to know who I am, and then find out I have nothing inside me". That was a shocking thing to hear. I assured her I would not publish anything without her approval, and we continued the session. Before she left, she asked to look through all the photographs in the camera, and while doing so she exclaimed "Wow.. I see I can look good even when I am not posing!"
A few weeks later, I received a letter from her telling me what a profound experience she had gone through, and that she had taken some life changing decisions based on it. That was the first time I realized, in such a concrete way, how much the "nude" can be a mask behind which to hide ones true self and how much more one can reveal when looking deeper than the skin.
(the person in the photo is not related to the above, except my conviction that she is not wearing a mask)
In parallel to becoming totally immersed in what was initially my "Nude Photography", I also started to experience street photography. I have always been a "people watcher", so this was a natural interest for me and a way to experience photography outside the studio.
It became a side diversion that I could do while traveling on vacation and during snippets of time while on business travel. However, I was not clear on what it was I was doing, i.e. what is "my voice" when I photograph in the street? I recently had several people observe, within days of each other, that they see something special - something about "little moments" and making them big. Someone, to whom I will refer to as "H", had been quielty following my photographs for a long time.. And then, out of the blue, she wrote to me: "I suddenly realize what it is I like so much about your photographs.. There is nothing more intriguing than watching people; what they look like, what they wear, the way they go about their business, their expressions, and then make up the story of their life.. In your photographs you manage to capture these aspects of humanity in an amazing way, select the most interesting people, and it is so much fun to examine them and sail away in the imagination". I am sure many people think my street photography is "banal", with no "punch line". But it is to the few that appreciate the same little moments that are so interesting to me, that I dedicate my street photography.
"Nude" is a way to see the body as an artistic object. "Naked" is to see the person. I am much more interested in nakedness - emotional as well as physical. When masks are removed.
And while we are discussing the subject - do you chose to wear your mask everywhere? Always? Are you prepared to strip completely naked even when you are alone?
Sometimes, being in front of a camera can be the opportunity to investigate these questions.
I use my photography to ask these questions of the people I photograph, and through them also discover things about myself.
I hear so much about "Fine Art" Photography. Seems to me it is typically black and white and tends to highlight (excuse the pun) lighting, "beauty" and, in general, "pleasing" pictures. Maybe this is what most people want. They can hang it in their living room. The Ansel Adams legacy.
I am not saying Art photography (or Photography art) cannot be "beautiful", or "pleasing" - but surely it is more than that? I read somewhere that Art is about asking questions and not answering them. I think this is a key concept. A photograph that is "what it is", as beautiful as it may be, can extract a "Wow" - but it cannot intrigue you.
I want Art to be intriguing - I want to wonder why I am interested in it, I want it to make me think.
I do love photography. I like the magic. Yet there are so many photographs that bore me to tears. I want so much more out of a photograph.. the "something else" that gives you a twitch in the stomach. This is why I don't like most photos of sunsets.
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